RuthRuthGirlGirl

2006-12-20T04:42:00.000-08:00

itz christmas. almost. ..
i shouldent be feeling like this, should i..?

we talked so much bout this time of the year..
wants..
wishes..
how it'd be like ...

then.. suddenly. just... suddenly. ... ....

n i thought u felt it.
so itz just me...?

God... help me. ..
dont let things stay this way. ...
itz... scaring me.
... even said... we'll... treasure it.

2006-12-20T04:14:00.000-08:00

i cant believe i still remember my account's username n password. decades since i last blogged. ><

i guess.. u saved it =)

2006-09-29T02:46:00.000-07:00

it was results time after the exams. mdm SOH handed mii my report slip in the hall n said "sorry ruth, see u next year." Overall: Failed. 46.8% stared straight at mii. i rushed to the girls toilet on the second floor, sat on the raised tiled area n cried my eyes out. then.. gail came in, told mii it was alright n all that crap. then i was outside... facing the library. behind mii was mdm SOH. "aiyo... that ruth arh..." n she was smiling/laughing. as usual. like it wasent a big deal. then... out of nowhere... ..Someone appeared. grabbed mii from behind n started.. telling mii stuff. ... ....

i think itz very sad. to get.. nightmares. ugh. n it seemed so real smmor =(

today dint make it better. guess what.

i did my summary on the same piece of paper as my compre. how forgetful can i get. i feel like some ultra blurblock, dont care at all, dont-listen-to instructions-at-all student. darn. are they not gon mark it?? =:::( of all exams, i had to make this mistake now. that guy teacher who collected my paper wanted to cut out my sumary for mii. but i dont know if they'll approve of it. ... .... ='/

TERRANCE SANTI: Clleear instructions given. Why u still do this..?
*pause*
me: -bite lips- i forgot.
TERRANCE SANTI: Dont do this next time okaee dear??
me: mm..

arghhhh!!!!!!!!! im SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO
SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO
ANGRY. DISSAPOINTED with myself. how could i make such a mistake... ...?! ='(

please God. any other subject but english...

2006-07-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

u dont have to do this..
it wont make a difference.

mmm... i wish for a better brain. =(

n... tomo'll be the start of a new week.
ugh.
n having chem CT, bio o level SPA on the first day of school isnt gon help mii like the week.
-cries- im so not ready. wish mii luck.

... i shall do a proper update another time(:

2006-06-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

i knew it. i just knew it would fade by now. .. :]

anger?

hatred?

... i dunno. these shouldent be in my head.
i tell myself itz a small matter.
budden i think again. is it??
i was thinking.. if we switched roles. what would u have done??
this?? or something worse??

we were never close.
but i always looked upon u as a friend.
never an enemy..
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what bout you?? (:
i really wonder u know..
if u really felt like how u treat mii infront of mii...
then... why all these??

if you really hate the way i do things, let mii know will u??
n i mean tell mii straight to my face.
not like.. how u're doing it now.

if i make a mistake, let mii know.
i'll correct it.
i make mistakes. but hello, u do to.
we're human.
dont do it the way u're doing it now.

i dont see the use of it. do u?? or do u even think about what u do?
dont u even feel bad bout what u're doing??
being sucha... hypocrite?

but dont u worry (: i shant take revenge. im not as childish as u.

please. i dont wann hate u. God.. help mii...

2006-06-25T06:24:00.000-07:00

itz always like that.
itz always the wrong things that are reflected.
itz always the wrong things that are remembered..
time passes... the good things are forgotten.. or said to be done "long ago" n "not done anymore"...
hundreds of good things have to be done to cover up all the wrong things... n even so, for a short moment.
itz always like that. realise..?? ... ohh well.. =)

so God... help mii please them n myself.
this greedy girl just wants to have her cake n eat it.
siigh... tallking about impossibilities.

what's happening?? ..

i couldent concentrate..
i just kept thinking..
n regretting.
but i thought... ...only i would fall. i dint know... ...

however,

i know.. i know things dont always go the way we want them to.
this shall be something to overcome.
overcome.

so i quote "i'll make it right, cos i believe."

2006-06-06T06:16:00.000-07:00

lalala.
whether or not to say itz up to u.
i shall just spare myself from misery. n not ask anything.

2006-05-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

siigh.. im sorry. i.. dont seem to mean what i say..

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2006-05-10T05:53:00.000-07:00

ahhh! jiu ming ahh. itz still only wednesday. there's bio paper tomo n im so so into the high-ness. i cant study i cant study!!
i so wanna catch some movies..
i so wanna just slack n eat at home
i so so wanna yak yak yak with my friends.
n... ...
ahhh...!!
distractions distrations! right before the bio paper!!! ohh well. i will mugg tonite people (: i promise (:

hehe... today's oral with ong han guan was funny x)

2006-04-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

irritatingly ridiculous.

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get lost will you?

yay yay yay!!! XD itz .. saturday!!! :DD
rejoice with mii people!! :D

2006-03-05T01:35:00.000-08:00

(: (: (:

i lurfed my weekend!!! :D
(:
ahhaha... :D
siigh. (:
i dunno. i just feel so.. ...
fornuntate?? (:

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tomo will be the start of a busy week.
all the english work. ugh.

(: im so so looking forward to the weekends again (:
n the one week break? (:

HAPPY!!! :D
ahhaha... have a nice day everyone (: (:

2006-02-22T07:34:00.000-08:00

im so tired i can just fall asleep now..
but no.. i cant.
tonite's just different (:
lols. do i make any sense??

mm hmm. so? what reaction did u expect??

1/2 hr more n itz gonna be the end of my favourite day of the week =/
n i dint spent it properly..
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im not contented!!

usoundasifurjoking.

im so not looking forward to school these days.
whats happening to mii?! =/
n ya. i think i lost my tie.

sodontexpectmiitobelieveyou(: (:

i keep thinking of the coming hols (: (:
which will go before i realise it.

evenifido..so??naye.dontucallmiievilnow.

n i got back my amath CT today.
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ohhanywayishantletthisbothermii(:
ihavebetterthingstothinkabout(:

itz sadd. i lost 7 1/2 marks due to carelessness.
SEVEN AND A HALF MARKS.
=(

ucangothinkthemoverurself.
nushallbeenlightened:D
cosifuditknow...there'salwaysboundtobesometruthinrumours(:
takkairemyfren(:

-cries-
this is so scary! =/

2006-02-17T07:05:00.000-08:00

ruth fell asleep during reading period today >.<
and the reading period the day before.
tired tired tired!!!
reached home n slept again from 1600 to 1930 (: yay.
im gonna try to finish that irritating amath wksht by tonite!!!

ahhh... life now is so... uninteresing. anyone agrees with mii?? =/
sunday: ahhh.. tomo's monday. first day of school. n we have CT.
monday: *yawns* i wann sleep awhile more... but yay. after monday's tuesday (:
tuesday: yay! :D choir day. 2nd school day. 3 more days to go ..
wednesday: remedials+choir(: 2 mroe days...
thursday: busiest school day! =/ but nevermind. __/__/2006 only occurs once in our entire life(: enjoy it! :D n still counting down..1 more day...
FRIDAY: :DDDD the day i look forward to most. although i have 3 periods of math. which i dont hate so much this year! (: (:
saturday: lets sleep as much as posible (: (: n DO WHAT I WANT! :DD

this somehow sumarises my 2 months of january+beginning of febuary 2006.
kinda ... i dunno... sadd?? lols. except for a few things (: (:
n i just hope they'll help mii last till the end of at least this year (: (:
they shall... they shall... (:

hahh... (: i shall survive sec3 (:
jiayouu people out there!!
u can do it too (:
remember to treasure our sec3 life (:
u'll never get to experience it again (:

n i just feel like saying a belated HAPPY VALENTINES to everyone(:

should i?? should i not?? ...

2006-02-11T03:33:00.000-08:00

ruth slept 13hrs...
but she isnt at all happy..
she tried to suppress everything by doing work for 4hrs..
started right after brunch..
ohh well..
work dint cure.. wadver it was.
it just.. kept condition under control

was told..

"pple care too much. so sometimes.. they hurt youu while trying to care."
ezit true??
siigh.
"cryin is good. just cry it out."
what crapp.
if i ever cry now. ..

everyone'll just stare like im some idiot.

mummy'll ask " what happen? dunno how to do math ezit?"

siigh.. just imagine this...

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2006-02-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

*cries*

what happened la... ....?!
or is it just mii??
argh!!

siigh.
i knew it. i knew it i knew it i knew it.

2006-02-08T05:42:00.000-08:00

ohh God.

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please please please.
let this continue.

2006-02-06T05:12:00.000-08:00

>.<

ruth is extremely blur today...

i keep having to use adina's correction tape. cos i keeepp writing wrong things for math.

i stepped on ashes. ewww..

i had to alight at interchange cos i fell asleep n missed the stop.

i forgot what commontest i had in school after school..
i finished my CT within 35 min. lols. n i was so hungry. people beside mii wernt done. scary feeling. i think im gonna flunk it. but anyway.. i started drawing on the extra paper! (: (: itz probably in the bin now. sadd.

i took longer than usual to reply people

>.<

eee... this is so sadd la... .... lol

i conclude that all these is resulted from the lack of sleep last nite. lols. so.. i decided to sleep early tonite n hopefully, be more alert tomo (: (:

2006-02-04T05:40:00.000-08:00

yay. ruth decided to update today. (:

i realised i havent updated of sooo long i cant connect sentences properly
>.<

today... ....
i got my ez-link card replaced!! (:
i finished 4/10 if the geography corrections! :D i shall finish 7/10 by tonite (:
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i was just talking, n then i was reminded(:
im amazed how the smallest things around mii can trigger my thoughts.. bout u(:

hmmm.. ...
questions i wann to ask yet cant..

do things change if u just leave it?

good nite everyone(:

2006-01-24T04:13:00.000-08:00

:D I am so happy today!!
HAHAHA...
although i almost died from shock.
but REJOICE PEOPLE!!! :DDD
wahahhaa...
i am so amazed at myself!
like how i can get so happy over lil things...
:DDD
ohh. or are they little at all?!?
LOL. just celebrate people!
REJOICE WITH MII!
happy happy!!! (: (: (:

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siigh.justwhatareutryingtodo?
ifeelhypocratic.

2006-01-14T07:14:00.000-08:00

wahahah...

itz amazing how my mummy agrees to let mii use the comp latee these days (: (:

just that.. i type in the dark -.-

hmmm... .....

i cant sleep
i cant sleep
i cant sleep
i cant sleep now

after cca open house i reached home n slept from about 5pm all the way to 20 08 =X
so, i've decided. to finish my math today. before i sleep (:

today... was cca open house! :D i dun like some sec1s =( but there were nice ones of cos. (: (:
yay!
then there was this girl.. when mii n jiahui walked towards her she walked backwards =/ then she dint wann respond to anything we said to her =// n she kept biting her lip =/// so scary la. i was more scared of her than she was scared of us ok.. i was so scared she would cry >.<
ohh well. introducing the sec1 newbies to choir was fun(: (: (:

almost 00 00 now! time for work (:

lalala~! :D

2006-01-12T03:18:00.000-08:00

heyy people! have ur ever felt so so sleepy one day... then at nite... u sleep at about 1... wake up suddenly at 4+++ in the morning, n feel more rested then ever?? hahahaaa... yes... im so energised today x) -.-

ahlala~

eee.... =S

howhow??

yes? no? wait? dun wait?

ahhh crapp.

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yay!! i've finished my math :D :D
rejoice with mii people!!! :D
ohh ya. ms shaym gave back that emath exercse today.
n she failed mii. cos i dint put (2dp) at the end of each question!!! =( im so sadd.
then... we had SS today (: lols. A leong is just a replica of loh MF. she talks funny also XDD N... she's one rasist. ugh... yea. today was one busy day (: i was rushing to complete my progress chart during chem. hehee... n i managed it! XD the next four periods after recess... i was feeling so so tired. cos i was stuffed with food during recess >.<

hmmm... im having piano lesson in 47 min time (: yay. (:

2006-01-11T02:23:00.000-08:00

HELP!!!
>.<
what's wrong what's wrong what's wrong...!!!
*cries*

siigh. what's happening to mii...
>.<
is it just cos im tired?
ughh. ohh yea. maybe...
im tired.
i just feel so useless suddenly...
i cant do anything although i have alot to do....

tired tired tired.
im more tired mentally then physically i guess.
i need mental revival.

2006-01-11T00:42:00.000-08:00

no...!
no no no no no!! >.<

please.... >.<
omg... what's happening... ..... >.<

save mii... ....

*cries*

2006-01-09T04:05:00.000-08:00

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god.
im having such weird dreams nowadays.
people say u dream what u think about.
which means im thinking weird stuff?
=X
yes. just last nite i dreamt i was with this group of people.
we were playing some kinda game...
we were holding penknives..
n we were supposed to cut each other's legs as many times as possible.
-.-
n i was happily playing that game in my dream...
i rememeber counting the number of cuts after the game.
i had 7 cuts! (:
-.-
sadistic i know. but im no sadist!

shucks. what happened... i was just posting n then... .... things can happen in such a short time? =X argh >.<

2006-01-07T01:10:00.000-08:00

(:

today's the 7th of january... 24+28+31+30+31+30+31+31+30+31+30+31= 358 days to the end of 2o06. yes. itz only 358 days for nice things to happen this year (: but... itz also a long time. alot can happen in 358 days ok. good things... bad things. sometimes i wish i could predict the future.. i wish things would go the way i want them to.. i wish i could make the future be the way i want it to be. ahhh.. i shouldent go on. heh. ohh well.. i guess im just scared cos the future's uncertain. lols. weird mii.

i just read most of my posts. n i have posts dating back to 4thjan 2005! :D hehe.. n yes. of cos i felt dumb after reading them. but they brought back many many many memories (: it actually took mii through almost every single thing that happened in 2oo5 (: one exciting, memorable year where manymany unexpected things happened(: (: i wondered why i thought of certain things a certain way (: i wonder why certain things happened.

i read how i wrote bout twofour`o5(: (: manz.. i miss u people so so so much. now school seems like something i go just for the sake of going. on friday, i was actually happy cos dismissal was at 1230. i actually look forward to getting out of class. i was wondering... how long would this continue? would i still miss twofour`o5 when im in sec4 as much as now?? =/ itz scary u know. lols. then i realised, if we hadent split, would we miss each other as much?? would we realise how much this class means?? heyhey, distance makes the heart grow fonder. hehheh.. XD

heyy. im not sadd now(: im just thinking bout stuff...

thinking thinking thinking bout things i want yet do not want to know. i wann ease my poor lil brain from all these thoughts. im lacking braincells already yet more of them are getting killed! but... im scared of knowing the answer. i might just die. ahhh... please...

ohh anyway takkaire people out there (: here's a lil something for u! :D

isnt it nice? :D hahahaa..

please... let it continue...

2006-01-01T03:02:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE :D

hello 2006 (:

bye 2005(:

(: thanks. im much much happier now. although i still miss miss miss 2005. but... 2o06 is here (: this year might just be more exciting. new stuff... new ways of doing things... wee~ (:

yupp. think over... in 2004, there were many many things i dint even think of doing of in 2005. which i did. so i guess 2006 might be the same? (: (:

wahaha... omg. i really think im crazy. im suddenly thinking positive again!!! :D suddenly! :D

yayyay. good good. may i feel this way forver :D :D

argh. i dun have time.

happy new year people. wishing all of ur a good year ahead (: may all ur dreams n wishes come true (: (:

2005-12-29T06:29:00.000-08:00

ahhhh!!!

i just realised i was L A T E. =X

oh no oh no oh no...

>.<

mummy dosent want to choose A or B anymore =X

XD

PEOPLE! A or B???

>.<

2005-12-28T00:58:00.000-08:00

(:

im happy. cos i had a good sleep last nite :D

woke up at 12+++ today... XD

had brunch...

did homework... :D :D

talked to shawn awhile while continuing to do homework...

felt distracted... forced myself to finish letter writing n 1 compo before going to the comp...

inbetween the compo..

i couldent take it anymore so i rushed to the comp.

lols.

aye. anyone in my situation would be desprate for the comp ok.

u have limited time to use the comp..

cant use the comp too late in the nite...

ahhh...!

u would have gone crazy.

but look people.. i can handle stuff properly. thats why im still normal :D :D

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im bored... =X i think i should continue with homework before trying to come online again tonite (: (: (:

2005-12-25T04:43:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS MERRY CHRISTMAS MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :D

-jumps around singing : ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS... .... IS YOUU!!!-

wahahaa..

itz 20:44 ... about 4 more hrs before christmas ends??

awww...

treasure it ok everyone!!! :D
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PEOPLE.
i dint receive any prezzies today =(
i just ate turkey. ham. beef. cake(: ... .... n some other stuff.
then... ....
the older people started drinking wine.
cos "there might not be enough drinks for the children"
like.. what bullshit!
say until like they sacrificing for us. lols.
my uncle was like "aye. try la. this is mild alcohol."
i was about to try... ....
then...
mummy said no. give daddy.
>.<
ahhhh!

n today was expectantly boring..
i was watching the guys play ps2.
then... ....
i fell asleep.
yupp -.-

what a wonderful christmas. -.-
will somebody nice make my christmas a nicer one?? :D

lols. im still trying to figure out why im so high despite my christmas celebration.

2005-12-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!! :D :D

wahaha... im just so so so happy.

itz christmas people!

lets party!!!

:D :D

2005-12-21T19:31:00.000-08:00

i just stared at the msn messenger window.
i wanted n did not want to think bout stuff.
i knew i would end up going crazy.
siigh.
well... i still thought bout some things,
couldent help it.
guess u're rite. im one person proned to confussions.

what we said bout next year. i agreed willingly although i already knew it would be quite impossible.
>.<
then i reminded myself bout what has happened... recently. just like that, i made myself discard the thought that it would be impossible.
but now im confused again!
ahhh...! just the thought alone of what happened recently can make mii breakdown n cry.
i wanted so so so so much for it to continue.
will it?? =S
i think of last time, when i thought that everything would just stop there..
but no, it dint (: (: (:
please. give mii that kinda suprise again *prays*

i think bout next year. looks as if things are gonna be worse for mii. dunno when i became a pessimist. siigh. but like u said, good or bad, we have to face it. next year still comes. ohh well. i have to agree rite? itz true.
>.<
*next year might be better!* ahhhh.... ...!

my phone just rang, n i ran to it
>.<
then as the msged opened, i knew it wouldent be from u.

i read some those msgs. i cant believe they were from u..
but i was smiling as i read them.

im staring at the msn messenger window
i want n do not want to think bout stuff
i know i'll end up going crazy
siigh.
i stare at ur nick.. wondering what it really means.
guess u're rite. im one person proned to confussions.

argh. i just feel like one useless thing that feels depressed over the slightest matters.
or maybe i am.
i dun even feel human now.
i feel like a mummy.
dead.

thanks sky, for crying with mii (:
i remember doing something when i was young (:
sound stupid but.. ....(:
once it stops raining, i shouldent be sadd anymore.
everything will be okayy. (:

siigh. i watched u go.
bye (:

H E L P!
>.<

2005-12-18T01:52:00.000-08:00

today in the car i was staring outta the window, trying to distract myself.
but expectantly, my plann failed.
siigh. clever mii. my plans always work.
i suddenly burst out laughing.
my brother n mummy stared.
lol. what to do? i just said " that old woman there very funny."
lucky for mii... they're used to mii laughing like crazy. *phew*

*6 minutes gone*

(: i dunno how to start.. but the first thing that came to mind when i told myself i HAD to do a posts was a big "thankew for EVERYTHING." really.. so much has happened recently. (: (: ... .... but i still cant help wishing for more.

however.. i still stop n think. especially when im alone, in the midst of basking in the hapiness of all the wonderful events that have taken place. .. i still wonder if all these is just a looong dream im having. lol. probably cos itz too... ... hmm.. fairytale kinda thing? but yea, fairytales have happy endings (:
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no no no no no... .... i dun wann think this way, but i cant help it.
come to think of it.. it may be because i treasure this alot, maybe even too much.
im scared of everything disapearring overnight.
i wont be able to take it.
i have a weak heart! -.-

i think of next year, next next year, next next next year. what will happen then? is it possible all these will still continue?? please God, let it continue!!! siigh. yes. im one person who cant adapt to changes even if they MAY be better for mii, i always look back n miss the past. u know, if i had a choice i would gladly choose for everything to repeat itself. tiring it may seem, i enjoyed every moment of it. (: times when i was so darn confused, sleepless nites spent thinking of what was done n what should be done, times when i doubted went crazy. siigh..(: now i look back n laughing at myself i say "itz all worth it" all those times of doubt n uncertainty is nothing compared to now. (:

all these,
i dont want them to be some bittersweet memory,
i want these to be something that will be remebered by with a smile,
because they're continued.

n heyy. im not demanding.
im being absolutely reasonable here (:

ruth typed this with her mind filled with all the happy events that took place (:

2005-12-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

=) i had some kinda italian food for dinner (: i dint know my daddy could cook such nice food XD mummy can cook. daddy can cook. WHY CANT I?
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hmmm.. i shall learn to cook :D yan can cook. so can i!! -.- lol. i have been eating good food these days ^^ i just had chili crab yesterday! :D n something called either crayfish or clayfish or neither. blarh* sounded something liddat la.
:D

XD hahahaaa.. yuhan's so funny.
LOL.. make people laugh like crazy before going on stage.
n then poor people have a hard time trying to control their laughter while walking up.
hahahaa....
i just hope that dosent happen on competition day.

kathleen! LoL.
one person who makes mii laugh for no reason.
hahaaa...
(: look at mii only when singing miao jia, chiin waan n BIAN HUA LAN (:
okaee ? (:
hee~
no looking at ave verum. LOL. cos i know both of us will burst out laughing.

cheee.. this post dosent sound complete but im gonna stop here (:

2005-11-27T22:53:00.000-08:00

tada =)

i just reached home (: (:

rain. RAIN...
RAIN!
i lurve the rain
;)

2005-11-25T18:00:00.000-08:00

6th was wednesday.
saturday should be a 2nd.
today`s november 25th.
-2.. , 23.
so..13 , 23.
so.. 1, 1, 23.
crapp..
i cant believe i actually did this
n not know why i did it.

siigh? 1, 1, 23.
1, 1, 23...
yes. 1, 1, 23..
can u believe it..?
i cant.

u won the bet (:
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i bought a pink man for my phone today! :D the light in him blinks when i get a call or msg. x) hahahaa.. so people, call mii! :D i just lurve to see him flashing! :D :D n ya.. i've decided to get him company (:

2005-11-22T20:05:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHH!!!
NONONONONO...
I DUNWAN NEXT YEAR TO COME!!!!
ugh...
yea. i dunno why i just suddenly start thinking of all these..
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i want last year to come!!!'
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siigh..
i guess itz not wanting time to freeze.
itz wanting events... people's attitude to freeze.
is it possible??? =S

hellllllppp.......

2005-11-22T19:52:00.000-08:00

Drained. Will blog about it later. Just felt like putting this down now.

HOW..

2005-11-19T19:58:00.000-08:00

:D :D

i cant sleep tonite!!!
i know i wont be able to sleep tonite.
LoL.
cos.. i woke up at 3pm today x) i slept for 13 hrs! :D :D
yea. call mii a pigg.
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(^00^)

today was kinda boring -.-
totally nothing to do. so i had to self-entertain myself. the usual way x)

played maple using my bro`s account ^^
yea. he went to bathe then i took over the comp x)
i helped him level up XD XD
i think my gaming skills are getting better!! (: (:

i mopped the floor (: (:
hehe. dont u think im getting more obedient ^^
my mummy says yes okayy.. lol
btw i managed to carry all my books home yesterday :D
without putting that plastic bagg down (:
except at the traffic light. xp
i took bus. BUS. itz quite a long distance from interchange to my house okayy. (:
but i managed to get the books back anyway.. without ariving home half-dead (:
then... when i gave my mummy the change for the books mummy said "keep everything except the 50 dollar note." LOL :D :D :D added up to $26 plus afew coins. haha.. can u believe it. my mummy suddenly became so nice. maybe she`s guilty. letting mii keep the change is her way of making it up to mii. hehehee.. -.-
kat told mii yesterday that the bruise on my left knee looks as if i`ve been child-abused. LOL. funny people.
ohh ya. i cooked my own lunch today! x) arnt u people proud of mii?? :D im so damn pround of myself x)
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blarh* talking about impossibilities.

2005-11-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

(: heyya people. itz bedtime story time (:
im gonna tell a nice story kayy?? (: listen to mii =)

you've just finished eating with ur dear friends after cca :D u n a friend walk out to the bus-stop.. talking bout something (: u realise itz exceptionally dark even though the street lights are on.. itz pouring heavily. the wind's blowing hard n you're feeling damn cold. you're told itz only 7:15pm.. the bus-stop seems ulu. ulu-er than on normal rainy evenings. u n ur friend decide to take a cab :D
finally! a taxi stops for u.. u gratefully get in ^^ the taxi driver's so nice (: he jokes n u almost die of laughter. LOL. XD XD then ur friend alights. u say bye happily (: the taxi driver offers to drive u to the nearest taxi stand for free cos he has to refill his petrol tank. however the taxi stand's crowded n there's not a single taxi in sight.he then suggests to refill petrol first than send u home. u agree!!! :D having no sense of direction, u just sit in the taxi n stare at the rain. the driver makes a turn suddenly n u find urself at a scary road. much much more ulu than the school`s bus-stop. than the driver says :wo dai ni qu yi ge ni mei you qu guo de di fang (i'll take u somewhere u've never been before).
you: *shocked* *huhh??*
you(half-wisper): huhh? qu na li? (go where??)
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you(louder this time): qu na li???
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taxi driver: wo................... dai ni qu bus depo!!
you: *LOL* okayy (:
you reach the ulu bus depot. u only see a taxi.. quite far away.. n an empty bus. itz even darker there.. u're the only on the taxi. the driver is outside refilling the tank. luckily u're on the phone talking to a friend. (: if not u would have die of fright. u tell ur friend wad happen n ur friend says "GET OUT! RUN OUT NOW." u look out n say " cannot. i dunno where i am... =S" ur friend gets worried. which makes u more scared. ... n worried? lol. all sorts of scary thoughts rush through ur brain. u even imagine the taxi driver has some electronic device in his taxi conncted to him. so he knows wad ur saying even though he's outside. -.- u look at the front seats.. ur gaze travels to the things beside the mirror. .... .. u see a picture on top of the numbers SHA 7415 R. somehow.. the picture loks familiar. like those u see in the news or papers. not under the headings of international achievements or some taxi driver's good service thingy. it looks like those u see under the kleptomania headings or those u see on crime watch as one of the wanted people. .. u get more scared. u ask ur friend to take down the driver's number. for a reason u find dumb when u think of it now. x) then... the taxi starts shaking. lol. dunno why.

the driver comes in n says : ni wei shen me yi zhi xiao? (why do u keep smiling?) then.. u realised u were smiling. unconciously. -.- for no reason -.- u continue talking to ur friend. partly cos of fear. partly cos u dare not talk to the driver cos u cant speak chinese fluently. x) the taxi keeps talking turns.. n then.. u say something which seemed scary at that time. aye. i dunno where i am ehh. i have no sense of direction. ur friend tells u SHHHH! dun say that. u look out n try looking for road signs to see where u are. but the taxi appears to go faster than just now.
u just stare blanky ahead. then.. the taxi takes a turn... n u see an ulu road with an even ulu-er bus-stop. but u smile (: itz a familiar place!!! u know where u are now! :D u can even run home ^^ u see ur mummy at the void deck waiting with money (: the fare is $7.20 u gave him a red note n got back 3 bucks change. YES. he gave u an extra 80 cents! lol. u dint realise that until ur mummy tells u (:

haha. is this story nice?? :D or did it really bring u to dreamland?? (: no matter what it did something usefull okayy.. heh. if it brought u to dreamland i'll have to admit my writing skills are shit. cos it was one of my most interesting taxi rides!!! :D

2005-11-08T12:08:00.000-08:00

:D :D :D :D :D

the day before yesterday
which was sunday (: went Lot 1. i went there to teach. to teach shawn. to teach shawn MATH. L0L. yes. math. MATHEMATICS. hahaaa.. n shawn reached late. first time. heh.. then was sms-ing Roger.. so asked him to come n join us at mac ^^ we helped shawn finish 1/2 of End-of-Year Examination Paper :D :D we could actually do more. it was shawn who objected. x)
so... went library. hahaa.. we are such good children dont u think (:* then roger intro us one kids "porn book" l0l ... i cant remember the title though. something like "the naked _____ book." shawn left the book open on the floor. then a mother came with a child "lai.. wo du zhe ge gei ni ting.." HAHAHA. LOL. XD XD read afew kiddo books (: took pictures of funny pictures in the books xD then.. went off. roger borrowed a book to prove he went to the library. hahaaa...

yesterday
monday... SPA! wee~ i was soo excited ^^ cos it was one of my last few lessons with GORILLA. x) reached school at 1250. thought i was late cos woke up at 1130. hehe.. n my daddy left the house without mii :( reached the lab with von clara erika lunxi ger n saw zhi ying n siew rong (: then they nah go in mah. so i thought gorilla havent come. so i was like GORILLA!!!!!!!
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2005-11-05T22:07:00.000-08:00

ruth is a very good girl today :D

i dint go out for no reason (: i cleaned my room AGAIN. cos my mummy said itz super messy. n i agreed with her xd hee.. my room is soo neat now ^^ im so happy bout it. although i know that wont last xp
i woke up this morning, switched off the aircon n went to eat breakfast =) after that i went back to my room n realised the floor had footprints n was soo sticky =/ so i told my daddy.
daddy: wads the temperature of ur aircon.
ME: 17 x)
daddy: no wonder la! so cold! waste energy smmore. look at ur window.
ME: *looked* condensation. -.-
yea. the stickiness of my floor was cos of condensation
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hehee... i just love the cold ^^

i just read my last entry
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just the last two paragraphs. lol. i dunno wad to say bout it. i feel so lame. i cant believe i wrote that. DEATH IS NOT BEAUTIFUL! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!! okayy people?? (: (: (: yay =)

ohh ya. i read today :D for about 2hrs. i feel so useful xD (:* aye. dun give that -.- look. itz an achievement okayy (: people can even read for 1/2hr in the parade square. n i did it for more than twice that length of time ^^ yes. reading is good for u. XD

third thing. i practiced piano :) :D n today`s practice was much better than yesterday`s (^,^) i was.... _____ yesterday... so i went to practice piano... thinking it might be better. n anyway i was waiting in the meantime. but practice was shitzo =/ i went off from the piano feeling more frustrated. went back to the comp... itz was booked.
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2005-11-04T15:33:00.000-08:00

i had a horrible nite last nite.. really horrible, n things dint get anybetter from then x/

i came online awhile.. did stuff i usually do. n left the comp feeling so damn affected
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yea.. n i have totally no idea why. then desiree called. siigh? even she could tell i was not alright. put down the phone shortly.. cos i wasent in the mood to crap. she had drama the next day also. n anyway i just wanted to stone.. i just wanted everything in mii to freeze.. my thoughts.. everything. i was quite tired also.. so i just lay on my bed n stare outta the window..at the sky. ohh ya.. i was lying in a different position by the way (: then... ..... ... i fell asleep, still thinking... .....
02 38, i woke up. dunno why but my legs were so so so pain. n i had gastricts.
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yea.. i almost wanted to bang my head on the wall or something. forced myself out of bed.. took medicine n cried myself to sleep. itz not totally cos of the pain in my legs or the gastricts i guess.. i was still thinking n thinking... ... of what was done n what to do. =/ am i at fault?? perhaps im to blame too.. for everything that has happened. i cant do anything properly. then... ..... i fell asleep just liddat.

im online now.. typing this thing.. not fully concious of what im typing. just letting as much stuff as possible flow out i guess.
i remember creating a blog cos the msn nick wasent enough to contain everything i wanted to say. x) but now? i cant say everything here at all... .... ... maybe not every problem or case is meant to be poured out.. maybe everyone is bound to have secrets.. maybe... .... so i guess i should keep everything to myself???

these days... everything just dun seem to turn out right.

siigh?? i feel like some 14 year old retard with the brain of a 3 year old who`s exploring life. life. there`s just soo much to it. happiness (: saddness :( a mixture of the two.. :S none of the two.. :? etc. etc. death.. there`s nothing to it ya? (: so repeat after mii DEATH IS BEAUTIFUL. :D im dead.. dun worry people.. u will get to die too.. no one escapes death`s claim. death is the greatest and most sucessful democracy.

2005-11-03T22:50:00.000-08:00

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WHY! why?? just when i thought things were okayy, when things were close to almost perfect something liddat happens? WHY WHY WHY!!!!!???? arghh.. heelllp... ... i might just go crazy..
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WHY. why cant things just turn out the way they are wished to
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WHY. why are there just no such perfect situations!!!!!!!!!
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WHY. why cant there be less interference!!!
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why cant.... .. ugh. siigh..

please please please... please..... ...

i cant let go. i just cant. itz IMPOSSIBLE.
siigh.
maybe i dun want to..
maybe im not willing to..
maybe cos im too persistant..
maybe the more such things happen the more i dun wanna let everything go..
maybe such things make mii realise how much these means to mii
maybe.. maybe.. im just crazy... .... ...

2005-11-02T22:35:00.000-08:00

im falling
but dun worry.. (:
im just falling back to where i came from..
a dilema...

2005-11-02T12:50:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED DEEPAVALI! :D

Happy Birthday Alibaba XD

heehe.. x)
aye. im bored stiff.. lol
i shouldent have woke up so early
lOl. i read the papers today ^^
arnt u proud of mii?? :D
yea. but that was cos i had nothing to do..
i practiced piano ^^
i washed desiree`s smiliee ball ^^ =D
uh-huh. i havent returned it.
hehee.. i feel so useful today! :D :D XD
i`ve got nothing to do now.. =/
lol. i just finished talking ultra lame stuff to perry -.-

ugh. someone please entertain mii before i entertain myself with crazy things again :X

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LOL. XD
ehhhhh... .. ahh.. siigh.
im not as strong as i appear to be.
im scared... of many things around mii.
im scared of the future.
im scared of changes... i dunwan things to change, cos i know i have a weaker heart
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but do i want things to stay this way?
am i satisfied?? I DUNNO.
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from a certain point of view, things now might be close to perfect?
budden... i think again... really.. is it?

it all boils down to... ... fear?
the fear of everything just disappearing overnight..
n then.. u think. is there fear now? yes.

ugh.. typing this makes mii more confused. my lil mind just cant process information like these.

2005-10-31T23:16:00.000-08:00

:D today was so fun!!
hehh.. but i dun think i can finish talking bout it in 1/2 hr.
ohh ya people. my parents just moved the com into their room.
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cos they realised my bro used the com early in the morning before going to school. LOL.
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YES. n i have a time limit of 3 hrs everyday. n i cant use the com too late into the nite.. cos people need sleep. arghh.. like nite is the best time to use the com?! ughh..
sympathise with mii people. i really pity myself :( can u imagine the agony im going through?? my com is like second to my hp. lol. yea. i really think i might die. thankfully itz post exam so most of my time is spent outside (: hehe..

anyway.. i ALMOST got blackmailed today. lol. im serious people. believe mii.
please. dun do it can? i'll be damn grateful to u. =/ cos it wont help. it will hai ren. siigh. *prays* i still wanna live.

i must say this today!!! today mii geraldine sharon jiahui samantha n althea went to some cool cafe i think. haha.. the people there were dressed in halloween costumes :D haha.. but they were soo friendly la. although one of them was extremly scary XD n i know their names! :D darlene is the scariest person x) lol. she looked as if she was moving on skates. jason is the white face bloody person who said "u looking for mii?" then i said no. XD siti is.. err.. that green face women. haha.. i want to visit these people again next year! n ya.. one of them was from css choir. (: (: :D samantha is so lucky to have her b`dae on halloween *envious* we went behind to say bye to all those people. heh.. n they dint look scary at all (: the embience there is so nice la. (: (: we should go there someday (: (:

eek.. my time is up.

2005-10-30T23:55:00.000-08:00

AYE PEOPLE! :D im so so pissed yet not pissed. (: my bro lied to mii!!! he said the internet connection`s spoilt. LoL. n i actually believed him -.- lol. yea. im so pissed bout that. but im laughing at myself for believing him. HOW?? wo zhe me rong yi bei ren pian :( heh..

i slept for 2 hrs just now. tooooo tired. hahh.. yea. i've been feeling so so tired these few days. n i dunno why =/ i cant sleep now though. thats why im online (: (: waiting.. waiting..
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siigh. i guess u dint know this. i wasent angry or anything. i thought u were. thats why i was.. ..worried? im sorry i looked pissed with ur. sorry. i guess u dint know, i was thinking over n over whether to apologise in person. budden i thought again.. it wasent my fault SO i dint know what to say. or perhaps i dint have the guts to do it. im sorry. im sorry for not saying sorry earlier, im sorry for not having the guts to say it in person. im sorry for not being able to find the right words to say sorry, im sorry for not being the one saying sorry first.im sorry for not knowing what to do then.. im sorry for not knowing what to do now. im sorry for sounding so dumb now, im sorry for....... siigh. i dunno. everything.

2005-10-27T18:00:00.000-07:00

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today so so sway la. ughh. yea. n itz all desiree`s fault. lol eekk... first thing in the morning see yucky. XD desiree! i shant follow u anywhere le. jinx. xp hee.. jk. yea. then the rest of the day yucky seemed to appear evrywhere. -.- next thing. i smile also cannot smile at the correct people. argh! yea. itz desiree`s fault again. dammit.. lol.
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she made the most embarassaing momment of my life. lol. like.. really never feel so embarassed before la. LoL. but i think if i were an on-looker i would have laughed my head off. XD but i so so pity myself now. heh..

2005-10-26T20:45:00.000-07:00

uh-huh. i wanted to blog. i have so so much to say =/ too much i guess. everything seemed clogged up in my lil brain by dunno what. thoughts just rushed in so fast i couldent organise them. so i just stared n stoned infront of this screen. yea. i stoned for bout 15 min before i typed this pathatic lil paragraph. so i shall do it later i guess. TV!!

2005-10-25T20:48:00.000-07:00

heyya people. ever tried reading ur own posts.. =)
i just did it.. n i found them rather dumb
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aye, someone tell mii.. are they?? =/
but they sorta made sense to mii when i was typing them ya? XD
i read my last post too..
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it sounded dumb. but it sorta makes sense... (: i dunno wad im saying la.

i asked myself loads of times if i should do it, i decided to in the end.
n i almost died.
ain`t i wonderful.. i almost courted my own death.

2005-10-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

siigh?
or not to siigh??
siigh...
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i knew it.. i knew it was coming...
uh-huh. things change..
i dun expect them to stay the same..
i know they just wont..
fact is, i cant go along with these changes.
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im so so used to whats happening, im immuned to it.
really.
i cant imagine what'll happen if everything just... ..... ...
i cant imagine waking up to day a where everything`s not the same...
i cant let go...
n i dunno why..

but.. siigh. that's life. WE MOVE ON :D
yea. wadver. i wont die =/ I WONT DIE (:

2005-10-21T19:55:00.000-07:00

yawns :o im soo tired. n itz only 1940..
i just feel like blogging (: no particular reason though.. =)

i woke up so early today! :D i consider it early (: 6am. so... i took my time.. (: (: first time in many many many months i sat infront of the mirror to tie my hair :D n guess wad.. i couldent tie it properly -.- re-tied it once. still looked weird to mii.. probably concious. heh.. den i gave up.. XD after that.... looked for that collar badge. haha... spent bout 10 min looking for that thing i think. den.. my mum started to rush mii. so... i took one last look around.. happened to look intot he mirror.. THEN I SAW IT. my collar badge was on my blouse already. -.- lol.. from then.. i knew the day wont end up nice (:

before recess;
everything seemed nice la. lol.. yea.. my math was totally not wad i expected. not exceptionally good. some people might call that underperforming.. but for someone like mii.. understand ya?
(: haha.. lit was okayy too (: yupp. so that was before recess. was telling lee ming i got a bad feeling i wont do well for english.

siighs.. i was right ya? =/ english was total crap la. chinese was worse... really dunno wad happen. i rather do this for math then chinese... science.. LOL. worst subject. =/ but wadver. nothing i can do now (: gorrila diao-ed mii. hahaa.. just cos my paper dropped off the table? LoL -.- sometimes really cant help laughing at her. x/ x) history... erm... okayy bah..

came home. first thing my mum asked was english.. she wasent var happy.. den... she asked bout math (: she was quite suprised. haha.. cant blame her la. i myself was. i even thought the teacher added wrongly xp heee... den.. my daddy came home.. my mummy told him bout my math. yea.. he was kinda happy.. (: den he said "maybe they exchanged papers"
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im hungry :D

2005-10-20T01:06:00.000-07:00

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aye, someone help mii please?? i'll be so so grateful to u :D :D
yawns.. n i have totally no idea how to go about doing this... so went searching afew webbies. crap...
not even started n im already bored stiff.
im doing someone else`s homework can u believe it?!
i dun even do my own x/
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RUTH JIAYOUU!!!

2005-10-19T13:10:00.000-07:00

(: (: PEOPLE! im so so happy!!! :D :D :D hehehee...

i packed 2/3 my stuff today! ^^ clap for mii people! itz something i normally dont do (:
i found my geography file still on my table..
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lol.. then i looked into my drawers... i cant believe i still have junk stuff from p6.. sec 1 xp
so i sat there awhile looking through some things. they were supposed to be thrown away.. but.. in the end i still kept them (: (: of cos there were stuff i threw away.. =) a whole stack of papers... some things i wish i could throw away... or burn.. like gorilla`s file. heh..

yea... some things i wished i could throw away... ..... ..... ... some things which i should be throwing away... but cant... .... =/ (: lol? i dunno wad im saying. i feel so damn stupid. i cant control anything. am i making things difficult? =/ im so sorry.

please.. will u assure mii this is not a dream..

not an illusion..

cos i dun wanna say in the end that beautiful illusions are only part of deceit...

cos i dun wanna say in the end that reality triumphs..

over what the mind seeks...

or what the heart yearns for..

cos... somehow... i believe... .... in dreams. in illusions??

2005-10-18T13:02:00.000-07:00

yay!!!! ^^ haha.. finally got this up =) lol. too long dint change skinn forgot how to do it x)
lost two entries in the process
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heh..
actually wanted another skin. with that cartoon falling off the clift.
:D :D im no sadist. it looks so cute. hehe.. but.. dunno wad happen.
so changed to this (: (:
light coloured background for a change (: (:

2005-10-17T23:56:00.000-07:00

(: today CME paper.. lol. gorilla was our invigilator! wahaha.. dunno why she had to keep standing at the back. IRRITATING! lol. then kept looking at mii.. n everytime i look at it it'll look away -.-!!! as if i'll cheat liddat? itz just one lame CME paper... that i dint even bother to bring my pencil case for XD

so yea. after that.. met outside 2/4 classroom went ice-skating with sharon althea jiahui stanley arthas. haha.. hmm. at the rink.... jiahui n i kept falling. LOL. first time in my ice-skating life see people fall down backwads then cannot get up. haha. XD XD XD first time i fell backwards also. heh.. n i think falling backwards is nicer than falling forward; which is actually the correct thing to do :/ but falling backward more exciting! :D :D yea people.. ur should try. haha.. n i dint get blisters today (: cos the skates were looser =) the ice-skating rink is interesting ya? there are gays :D weirdly childish interesting girls.. (: n people wearing spongebob underwear! XD XD XD

hmm..after that saw snjt+shawn n zq.. lol. then they started pulling out our gloves. HAHA. LOL. XD

after skating... decided var long on wad to do.. lol. in the end bought child's play, went sharon n stanley's house to watch. =) one sadistic show. lol. then... went to play heart attack... uno madness. lol.. PILLOW FIGHT! XD wahaha :D we should do more of these ya? itz a good form of exercise :D :D just that should play in a more conducive environment (: (: * nods head*

then........... went home. think i was laughing to myself again in the train again :X cos this guy opposite kept looking, like wth... luagh only wad.

(: (:

2005-10-16T18:50:00.000-07:00

(: post-exam period..
however not really in the mood =/
probably cos the papers wernt good..
or probably havent indulged much in post-exam activities yet (:
heck the papers.
i wanna enjoy before receiving my passport to hell (: (:
hmm.. almost all the fun`s going on in the afternoon..
anyone into enjoying in the evening or nite??
:D :D :D lol

nothing much happened today. came home from church sat infront of the tv ate n ate n ate.. :D
then went to shower.. fell asleep.. got woke up by msg.. started sms-ing (: (: went online... still online.. going to eat dinner.. watch tv again.. snack again.. tonite might be spent infront of the tv. not planing to sleep early (:

just realised last nite that my bro used the com until 3+++ hmmph. im angry. i wan the com too :( but.. nah mind. we agreed to watch tv till tomo late morning =) wahaha.. im just feeling soo happy now (: (: (:

ruth lurves everybody! n today`s` weather :D
have a nice day people!

2005-10-15T00:44:00.000-07:00

(: i cant sleeeep...
nothing to do online.... x/

oral today was so funny. XD i said a whole load of crap. i also dunno wad i was saying then.. everything was like.. auto msg. haha.. then stella quah was laughing :X
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heh.. then when i was preparing for oral.. i could hear the person behind mii talking. HAHA. soo loud XD so when came to my turn i mumbled x/ i think.. but.. ORAL ER YI MAH. only.. a few marks rite? xd *ah Q jing shen*

went causeway with desiree n gail after oral.
lol..desiree bought mii that pigg ((: hehe..
then... we dint really shop. we played XD
SORRY DESIREE :( yea.. dint mean to leave u dere xp XD XD XD

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what if what if what if...
what ifs are just what ifs.
dreams are just dreams.
thoughts are just thoughts.
is it true that reality triumphs over thoughts.. dreams
or do all these lie with us.. =/
i believe itz a combination of both.. but... ... ... ...

a part of mii is optimistic bout things.. another part of mii just fears the end.

i guess i shouldent stay up late =/ itz just so so quiet n i start to think.. =/ (:

2005-10-11T20:46:00.000-07:00

im so so happy (:
cos itz math tomo.
im not talking fan hua.
im just so happy itz gonna be over soon
n i wanna die smiling x)
wish mii all the best people

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2005-10-10T14:37:00.000-07:00

XD im so happy. HAHA..

yea.. today's paper wasent nice. dint finish it.. but i have companions rite? x) thats not the point anyway.. i dunno why im so happy. hehe.. i've got 2 injuries just doing the paper. my left bottom lip is sore.. was unknowingly bitting it throughout the whole paper :( my right hand last finger's skin is sore.. i think the paper was too rough -.- i was doing SBQ... realised that not enough time so went on to structured essay qns. cos i know i just cant score in SBQ XD my name was shortened from ruth wu xueyi (20) - on the first piece of paper to ruth (20)-on the last piece of paper. commonwealth secondary school on the first paper to CSS on the last piece. (: think i wrote too much crap :S mrs loh saw a sweet on my table. then she tapped my arm.. i got a shock.. XD then she was like "exam cannot eat sweet okayy? keep it." XD HAHA.. but the teacher who came in after her was funnier. heh heh.. SHHHH SHHHH! LOL.

last nite.. wanted to mugg. but... too tired! + not in study mood = lie on bed n sleep ohh well.. seldom in study mood. came to school this morning... heard of how people study. siigh.. if ur call that study.. i must say i slacked. yea.. i just spent slightly more than 2hrs :S

ohh ya. i saw a replica of hexun in the bus today! :D XD :D
just that this guy was from dunean (XD i cant spell)
abit fatter n taller n his eyes were bigger.
other than that.. they looked n behaved so alike XD
luckily there was this css girl with mii.. i dunno her name but.. nevermind. i know she's from 2/5 =) talked to her quite afew time ready. but.... :/ yea. i really need to thank her. cos if not.. i would have died. not from laughter. from embarassesment. imagine laughing to urself on the bus when nothing funny's happening XD that hexun's twin thing was enough.. then i thought of what shawn said. that ti ki thingy. LOL LOL. XD XD XD (someone save mii.. im dying from laughter now XD) wanted to control my laughter budden the more u control the more it becomes uncontrollable dont ur realised that???? yea.. den even that 2/5 girl thought i was crazy :X

hmm.. i must start reading The Pearl. the last time i touched it was during the december holidays..( not considering the time when mr chia read a chapter to us)

things to do today:
1. start on science (: cos i lurve gorillas!
2. read The Pearl =)) cos i lurve mr chia! he's so nice dun u think?? (:
3. get back Roger's curve ruler XD cos..? lol
:D :D :D have a nice day people! :D

2005-10-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

=) thanks for the taggs people. haha... was just pissed with some sick idiot who played the world's most un-funny joke on mii, created some misunderstanding which might be solved only if i... ..... :/

believe mii
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i dint say anything :X but itz cos i dint know what to say..
cos i kept quiet thats why..... .....
im sorry.. :/

but itz okayy.. staying angry for more than 20 min is not my type =) cant stand it. lol. just keeping that straight angry face... dont ur feel uncomfortable? haha..

today... was okayy.. a pathatically nothing interesting sunday :/ woke up late again.. so rushed out of the house looking like some mad girl.. tied my hair in the car again =)) i've been doing that since p6... almost every morning. so i dun even have to look at the mirror now. hehe..

came home.. i complained to my mummy that i forgot everything i studied for history.. ( i said that just for fun la! cos i havent studied.. XD) then she was like " u want to know the reason? i wanted to tell you this long time ago.. just that i dint do it. you have been depending on urself to study.. depending on urself to remember everything. do you remember God?" yea. thanks mummy.. she just woke mii up liddat. so true yea.. i've been caught up all the wordly stuff, i forgot God. i dun remember when was the last time i prayed.. maybe it was when i was troubled.

* God.. thank youu for that timely reminder that u're still here with mii. grant mii all the concentration n memory i need for the revisions for the rest of the exam papers . sit with mii through the remaining papers .. God.. forgive mii for only coming to u when im troubled.*

((((: i shall try to study now.. (: jiayouu people.. just 4 more days (((:

2005-10-08T19:44:00.000-07:00

wadver la k? wadver u did ONLY is ENOUGH. now there's a misunderstanding n ur happy ya?
CHILDISH

2005-10-08T13:25:00.000-07:00

i want it to end.
that was what i would say at the very very very very beginning.
but now? i dunno.
yes. itz a load.
but itz essential..
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.
.
.
i might go crazy if i dun get over this.

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just who are u?
why do u keep taking up the space in my mind?
how do u do that exactly?
do know you make mii so damn confuse by what u do??
questions bout u keep lingering in my poor lil brain. do u know that??
do youu feel the same?
siigh.
i wanna know the answer.. so that my poor lil mind will be at peace,
but i dun wanna know it.. cos im scared i might not be able to take it.

how did i ever get myself into such deep shit??!

2005-10-08T12:59:00.000-07:00

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im supposed to be mugging like crazy now..
but i just cant!!!
helmi!!
im totally NOT in the study mood..
i tried.. I DID.
but i keep finding myself stoning.
yes. the history notes are infront of mii.
but nothing's getting in.
i just have this "amazing ability" to block out stuff.
especially when there're other stuff on my mind.
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how?? lol.
someone kill mii !!

5 more days?? I MUST DO IT! even if i cant =/

2005-10-07T19:06:00.000-07:00

:D
school today.. was school =) nothing special.
lesson... revision. *yawn* then weizheng was being my playlist during science. LOL. n he spoilt a chair. XD yea.. he's strong. graded him 5/10 for singing. *gei mian zi* but he was still so upset. heh heh. anyway.. he's so so so much better than the person next to mii the the bus yesterday -.- this women... sat beside mii n took up about 1 1/2 the seat. so yea.. i was squashed near the window. but that isnt the point. cos i was tiired so dint bother much. just wanted to sleep awhile. she was listening to her mp3 or something.. then she started monotonous singing -.- started out quite soft. then it got gradually louder. HAHA. i almost laughed out loud. but i managed to control.. somehow. then this bukit view guy turned around then smile slightly. HAHA...

the toilet doors at science centre are LOW. heheheheee.. LOL. HAHAHA. i studied today. hehee.. =)

listening to "hen xiang ni". my dunno how many timed listening. still cant get the lyrics. i only hear.. "ni zai na li.. zhe xie nian lai...blah blah blah..wo hen xiang ni.. ni zhi dao ma.. ru gou ke yi.. lalala.. hen xiang ni.. ting jian le ma? " then... the rest of the song i recall in a broken line. i dunno.. i dunno where the lyrics sent to mii went. :X but itz okayy. i believe i will be able to geddit after a few more times of listening. XD

save mii people.. i listened to that n went crazy. kill mii.. but fufill my wish :D i wanna donate all my other useful organs to other ke lian people in the world :D pity the person who takes my brain.

2005-10-04T15:34:00.000-07:00

maybe for some reason this post's not supposed to be up. blogger deleted my first entry.

please.. i dunno what to say. u tell mii what they say is not true. but if wad u say is true.. then wad is it they're saying?? what did u do to make them hate u so much? is it some misunderstandings?? do they have something against u??? i dunno. im sorry. im sorry if i misjudged u. im sorry for what i did today. i dun wanna believe them. but can i trust u?? i cant help wondering if what im hearing i true. any normal person would =S i guess.. please. i dun wanna any complications. i may be over-reacting.. maybe.

if ur want mii to do something.. just ask okayy? n please accept my answer whether itz what u want. im naively dumb. okayy. wadeva. but does that mean u make mii do stuff liddat? but like i said.. im dumb. so yea. if ur were sincere.. then im sorry for assuming stuff. n thanks.

for those i know are really sincere.. thanks a lot =) cos true sincerity shows clearly =) lurve u.. people =)

blasting my music to block out the ringing. i counted. 12 is enough.

2005-10-03T19:58:00.000-07:00

i lurve IT ((((((:

today while walking up the slope i thought i saw a toy gorilla in ITZ car (: lolls- budden jolyn they all told mii later it was another teacher's car. hehee.. xd wee~ i lurve science lesson. i lurve science lesson . i lurve science lesson!!! -.- any idiot could see IT was giving mii special attention la. but i dunno why i was still laughing at IT. XD i shall lurve IT even more! :D mm hmm..

1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10..11........1. -faints-
so so so much things to do after EOYs! (: 14 more days =)

2005-10-02T16:40:00.000-07:00

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can someone teach mii how to concentrate??
please..
anyone??
i'll be so so grateful to u..

siigh.. only two papers down n i realised i cant keep the promise to myself.

no.. im not strong enough to make it through...

2005-10-01T14:50:00.000-07:00

(: im so so happy today! :D hehee...

but no one to be happy with mii

looks like everybody's sad.

WHY??????????????

exam stress???

im kinda stressed up by the freaking EOYs too.

siigh.

but think of wad we can do after the exams :D

tempting..

but it sorta motivates? -.-

i dunno...

im really looking forward to post-exam time (((((: can do everything i lurve :D happy happy.

couldent sleep last nite. lol.. wanted to watch ju-on. hahahaa.. but.. only one at home. so i decided to skipp that. xD went to the comp.. den realised my bro pulled out the damn wire n hid it. argghh!!! spent quite some time finding the wire.. i think he kept it in his drawer. cos it was locked. lolls- but nevermind. i forgive him =)) anyway.. was around 12. so just lie on my bed. sleep shortly after that. woke up at 3+++ .. saw shawn's sms. lol.. yea.. itz children's day. =))

happy children's day people!! :D :D

2005-09-30T19:09:00.000-07:00

(:
two horrible papers down
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chinese paper II was so so shity.

im prepared to fail..

i thought i'll die at the math n science paper.

but wth..

im already in my coffin

i'd have decomposed by the time math paper comes

thought my compo content was quite okayy (:
Q3.. i knew most people would write bout loving their daddies ((:
so i purposely wrote the opposite :D :D :D
i ended with "ba4 ba4, wo xiang3 dui4 ni shuo1... wo hen4 si ni3. hen4 si ni zhe ge4 mei2 ren2 qing2 de ba4 ba4. " =)
:d BUT... i dint have time to fill in some of those words that i dunno how to write!
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have u ever ever felt this way..??
wanting so much to do something..
but having to pull urself back..
cos u just cant...?

2005-09-28T14:15:00.000-07:00

x( a dead sad smilie. lol.. how?? ze me ban??
im so gonna fail english.. sigh.. feel like killing the setter la. the first paper's like shit. such a great start to the EOYs. how am i going to survive the rest of the papers?!

i dint get any crap in those two passages althogh the two passages were full of them x/ im gonna flunk paper II. xd now i fully understand why mrs yeo was so stressed up talking bout the EL paper. i was so so so tired when doing the compre la.. i think the passages were too boring >< or maybe i spent too much energy doing the first paper.

paper I was... okayy... at least better... compared to paper II =) i was quite energetic. but morning weather wasent that good. n i hadent any inspiration =X spent 45 minutes on that letter... maybe i wrote too much xd then... compo.. still no inspiration... so i got quite worried la. but in the end i managed to come up with some crap story.. i need to thank the fan for that :D the fan.. from my seat.. the front left fan :)) hehee.. so if i pass my compo im gonna worship that fan -.- the fan that gave mii inspiration =) i was looking at that fan... thinking.. thinking.. then from i dunno where n when.. i just got ideas :D but... had some spelling probs :S was scribbling "furthur" n "further" at the side of my paper :d i chose the latter :) 30 minutes on compo. lalalaa~ =) wasent good though.. cos it was just ideas. probably just as crappy as this post -.-

but... itz already over. so... ... itz chinese tomo! all the best people.. :)

i shall die smiling x) i've done an emoticon count. 19 emoticons present =) not cos im extremely happy. itz cos i was deprived of drawing smilies today :)

GOD BLESS ME

2005-09-23T21:28:00.000-07:00

EOY exams are coming =) i shall work hard from now on.. =) last minute revision but at least i bother to start rite =d cos i dun wanna regret when i get back those freaking papers. ohh well i still might.. for not starting at the beginning of the year. but since we're already at 23 september 2005, i shall just start from today =) from today onwards, nothing shall distract mii from my revision. until at least the last major paper =)

i dun really know the dates for the exams but i know when it ends! :D itz the 10th of october, a monday.. if i dint remember wrongly :D take note of it people! hehee.. there are so much more things to do after the exam! yay..! hehe..

zhen qun sneeze var funny! lol.. okayy. it dosent relate.. but yea.. ur should hear or see him sneeze! HAHAHA...

im sorry. i r a ly di t me n to add on to what u a r dy h d.

2005-09-20T19:10:00.000-07:00

itz ur choice whether or not to read the following entry.
i dun wan u to get affected..

im sorry.

2005-09-20T19:03:00.000-07:00

HELP!

HELP!!!

ahh...someone.. help mii.

wads wrong with mii. I DUNNO!

am i just too sensitive?

am i just imagining stuff??

am i thinking too much???

or is it the truth im thinking??

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exams are like so so near

my work's like shit

n here i am blogging.

blogging bout ... zzz.

argghh.

why do things happen at the wrong time?!

really..

i dunno wads wrong with mii.

i can tell people wad to do..

i can brainwash people..help them..

but... i cant comfort myself ><

i laugh alot.. n i dunno why.

i can laugh over the most un-funny thing on earth

n lose control of myself.

but... i just cant seem to laugh this off.

i dunno how to.

siigh.. i need someone.

but i guess no one really understands.

n the person i want to make this known too..

the only person whom at least i think will understand is also the person i dunno how to talk to..

i really dunno how to put it to u. maybe im thinking too much. but i cant help it!

i wanna be stupid! i dun wanna know anything!! i want my level of instint to be as low as my level of math! x/ i've kept this for far far too long. i dunno if i can take it anymore. i want to just get drunk n tell u everything. but i just dun have the guts.

itz always the small things around mii that sparks off my thoughts.

2005-09-18T23:04:00.000-07:00

* continued from previous post cos i thought it was too long* im posting so much cos my bros are playing candles! lol.. i just went to watch them play... n play with them. hehehee..

anyway... roger just reminded mii again. our lives dates back to when we were p1 even... i started from p4 cos that was when i just changed school. from p1 to p3 i was in bukit batok primary.. yea.. same school as weizheng perry n jamie. lol. n i was sitting beside perry.. n igot along well with him! hahaa.. cos im not sharron?? hahahaa... XD opps.. =X n then... dunno which crap school took over my school's building.. i think it was pei hwa or something. so... bukit batok primary moved. to somewhere far far away. lol. too far i had to change school.

im typing all this cos im bored.

i've decided to study history tomo. cos ms ker says itz related to psycology =) if i dun become a psycologist... ima just go n become a nun. =D den i can go n sing that funeral song everyday. =D =D =D hehehee..

2005-09-18T22:38:00.000-07:00

just now when we were having dinner.. my daddy said "for ur math n science... just do ur best. dun get frustrated if u really cant do."

thanks daddy =)) i dunno why he said that.. but ya.

when he said that i dint feel like neglecting my math n science. i had this obligation to do better in these two subjects.. especially math. but ezit too late?? sighh...

anyway... i have been having weird dreams lately. lol.. i dunno why. i've been dreaming weird stuff for 4 days consecutively..hehee.. i had some sort of a nightmare last nite >.>

n SHIT SHIIT SHITT! roger just reminded mii i havent syudied history.. argghh!!! but yea.. must thank him for this reminder =) but im gonna DIE. history 5 chapters?? HOW??? heellpp...

maybe i should go study now =) but... lol. no mood. hahaa..

lets see... my most so called sucessful year was when i was in p4. so many many many things happen..=D den.. perhaps it was complacency.. my results dropped like crazy the following year. that was the most disarstrous year. yea. complacency. * the fall of singapore was due to both the weaknesses of the british n the strenghts of the japanese. the british were complacent. general percival belittled the japanese n thought that singapore was impregnable...blah blah blahh* crap.. is this tested? lol. p6... NICE YEAR! lol.. i started PSLE fever only aroung 3 weeks before that damn exam. hahaa.. suprisingly i wasent really nervous. i remembered i couldent understand why some of my friends were so nervous. haha.. maybe i was nervous only right berfore the exam. that time was the SARS period.. had to take temperature.. n my pemperature went right down to 34.++ hahaa... sec 1... not many people studied i guess?? hehee.. trademark year. sec 2............................... sighh.. what can i say? lets await the disaster.

=D there are many things to do after the EOYs =)

2005-09-15T20:08:00.000-07:00

piano lesson in 25 min time =) happy happy? lol.. i just finished my theory.. :D but im tired... *yawns*

2005-09-14T22:43:00.000-07:00

:D i forgot. my motive in writing the previous entry was to proclaim my love for gorillas. haha. but forgot to put it down. anyway.. im saying it now! i love gorillas! beautiful creatures dun u think =) wonderfully made =D n their attitude... thats the thing i like them for best. =] -.- n they love mii to! u can see it too right?! especially THAT gorrila. she pays mii "special attention!" wee~! whow... im in love -.-

so people.. say it with mii.

We love gorillas!!! :D

2005-09-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

wee~ happy happy! hahahaa..i dunno why again. but at least im not sadd :D

i handed history today! yay! hahaa.. to ms ker personally, n told her i added in pictures =)) den she gave mii that suprised look. then she said "good.. next time remember to bring ur textbook" haha. anyway.. the main thing is I FINISHED HISTORY! I FINISHED COPYING THOSE NOTES!! lalala~ reasoning with her why history is important. or rather why we're studying history.. den she ask mii what i wanna be when i grow up. i wanna be a phycologist ^^ hehee.. she said phycology is the study of human behaviour..history has something to do with human behaviour too. so they're related. so...yupp =) i shall think tonite whether i should do well in history ^^ hahahaa..

hmm.. im not tired... but i wanna try to sleep. =)) anyway there's some irritating living thing here again..siann

2005-09-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

crap. my bro's behind mii. so today's font shall be in yellow.. since im typing on a white screen... this way it'll be more difficult for that living object behind mii to see =)

today. would have been almost perfect without common test.

haha.. choir today...especially sectionals..wahaha... it was like laughing session. sorry geraldine! but i really couldent stop laughing. lol.. n i have no idea why. den halfway i just stared away at nothing... not cos i was tired or anything.. den i could feel cheryl looking at mii so ya.. i tured n look at her. luckily she dint scold or anything. yea. n she smiled. then i was like * phew.. n smile back* ^^ anyway.. we combined that yuki nohi song. yay... haha. n that SHARON GERALDINE N CHERYL.. TREAT MY LEG LIKE SOME GRAFITTI BOARD LORR. lol.. whow... how i lurve my leg now.. so much stuff to read if i cant sleep tonite -.- BUT..she used red.. n it smuged. so from far... looked like...eww. blood. yuck.

after choir. jiahui lost one side of her shoe. hahahaa.. so naturally i laughed. anyone would rite?? lol. ya. then that fang yi walked pass.. saw mii laughing n thought i hid her shoe. hahahaa... reason: cos i laughed too evily. hahahaa... like...is laughing some kinda sin? cannot accuse people liddat okayy. but in the end.. found her shoe.. at the uder side of the shutter. heh heh heh.. so hmm.. thats about all for today.

ohh ya..today's my bro's birthday =) happy 13th birthday brother :D

tonite.. i plan to keep my mind clear n sleep early =) i've lost too much sleep over the past few days. =)

2005-09-11T21:21:00.000-07:00

yay! the great depression is over =) now itz... err... =) i dunno why im feeling so so happy :D the few reasons i can think of..

1. im crazy. i dunno. i laughed at this girl... slightly older than mii i think. cos she dropped a piece of paper.. *i dint wanna laugh! but i couldent control... n the more i try to control the more i wanna laugh -.-* so ya... i was there trying my best to control n not let her see i was laughing at her. cos i thought she would stare or say something.. budden...lol..she started laughing also. i dunno at wad... but ya... she looked at mii..den she smiled.. den she started laughing. haha.

2. food makes one satisfied? lol. just came home from dinner =) food was okayy... i ate garlic by mistake -.- n i mean quite a big piece. cos of that cat near mii... scary *shivers* i was staring at the cat.. den the cat was staring at mii..haha. guess all my attention was on the cat... cos i could feel some weird taste in my mouth... but somehow i continued biting. haha..

3. i've finally learnt to relax? haha.. was talking to shawn two nites ago... or should i say morning.. n ya. i was enlightened! lol... maybe... or maybe temporary enlightenment. =)

2005-09-09T17:06:00.000-07:00

talk to mii.

keep mii occupied.

please..

i dun wan my thoughts to wander....

2005-09-07T14:08:00.000-07:00

this morning...i woke up at like 4++ probably cos it was raining =)

i just lurve the rain =)

could have just sat at the window,watch sky cry in the dark n i'll start dreaming again. but.....the results of the horror movie prevernted mii from doing so. so i just lay in bed..hugged my pillow.. hear the rain.. let my thoughts wonder... found myself smiling to myself again.. but when i woke up to reality................................ i had to force a smile. why?! this is torturous.. i dun wanna cry inside when im alone. when i just let my thoughts drift. i want to think of happy stuff but this just seems to occupy my mind whenever i dun want it to. i dun want to be this pathatic girl who can do nothing but cry at such things. well.. actually it depends on how i look at it. i could just count myself lucky for some reason. but ... these reasons dun seem to outweigh my ... pain..or wadeva it is.

so i decided t0 close my eyes... n let the rain accompany mii to dreamland.

i dunno. sometimes things turn out the way i wish they would stay forever..sometimes........

2005-09-01T19:09:00.000-07:00

u told mii it was rude to just barge into the room without warning.
u told mii it was rude to read other people's stuff without permission.
then WHY are u doing the latter?
n need u make such careless assumtions?
did u even ask mii what was going on?
no.
ur far toooo sensitive.

2005-08-30T22:30:00.000-07:00

tomo is the teacher's day performance =))

how are ur feeling people?? =D

i've been so so so so happy...
today during choir was looking forward to the rehearsal.

but now....

suddenly....

i start thinking...itz something like a reminder that itz almost end of year...2/4 will be spliting soon.den i start getting so...err..depressed?

i dunno.

dunno wad to say.

loss for words......just thinking of how the spiliting will be like at the end of year drains mii emotionally.....

i dun wanna split at the end of 2005!!!

why must time pass so fast?!

why do things not go the way we want them to most of the time?

is this just part of life??

no idea.

i remember having this feeling when i had to leave my p6 class too.

in the end.

although i still lurve 6b....

2/4 just seems more important to mii.

maybe i should just treasure wad is left now.

before.............

the undesired time comes...

what will happen then..?

this time...i dun wanna know.

2005-08-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

something that seems so easy yet to difficult.courage.i guess all it takes is courage.but....thats the difficult part.

2005-08-22T21:18:00.000-07:00

im supposed to be doing science for tomo.but wth...my freakin brother left his freaking science textbook in his freaking school.arghhh!so ya. thoughts start rushing through my brain.

have you denied ur feelings for someone because ur fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; Saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had?

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own… when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? Too many of use stay walled because we are to afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

i dun wanna be a person who looks back n regrets the past.

just some inspirational thoughts.i dunno wad im talking about...but....thats the beauty of it.wahaha...=)

2005-08-19T23:07:00.000-07:00

=)) im happy =D cos i had 13hrs of sleep x) itz going to ran now...wee~ i just lurve the scene of a light drizzle =) okayy...i dunno wad to write bout..-wee~ itz raining- =D

this week has been nice =)
thursday...hehe..im starting from thursday cos i cant remember so far back.dance practice.first trial was horrible..second time i remembered all the steps! -clapclap- 3rd time was the best =) i think i think of the dance too much...i couldent sleep at night..lol.so i was doing the steps lying down..retarded i know.so that continued until 12:30pm. i still couldent sleep..so...picnic in my room.yay...until 01 ++..cleared up n slept shortly after that.

yesterday...was supposed to be a var nice day..but..ohh well..it was still nice la.hmmm..im lazy to continue.wad do u expect from a post written with no inspiration?=))

the rain has stopped.

u are EVIL

2005-08-16T19:59:00.000-07:00

okayy. today's topic is on evil people. u are EVIL! i dun wanna know the truth! why did u lemme know!! im not being over suspicious...im not being paranoid. it coincides...err.at least i think so. but......................why is there this feeling of...erm...wrong-ness. my brain tells mii from all the information processed..that im 80% right. what i dun like IS happening. but...aomething inside mii just tells mii itz all wrong. what should i trust? brain or instint?? ohh well...i said i cant be bothered. but do i bother? =)

anyway..there are nice people too! yea...another thing to think about...whether to be happy over it. =)

okayy..we've talked about evil n nice people. there are bad people too =( dunno why but i happen to be meeting bu zhen chang people on the bus. haha..yesterday...went home around 7:30. i was so tired..i closed my eyes. den suddenly i heard a sound. was the guy sitting beside mii...doing aomething to his sunglasses. mind u..it was 7:30pm. ya..n he kept looking n leaning closer to mii..like his head got no where else to turn or var cramp liddat. so i was like -stare- -STARE- yupp. n today...this rude guy...dint wanna move in...n he looked kinda retarted...no offence. but ya..den he kept on grumbling. hehe...im updating cos im bored. n i plan to change skin soon! ^^

2005-07-31T20:08:00.000-07:00

(:* my mum's weird...dunno wads wrong with her this few days.she was scolding mii yesterday,"why your room so messy?!tell you so many times still dont go n pack! *like...was my room ever neat?**shrugs* n she's angry cos i keep going out.n that i come home too late.but today...she extra nice.maybe she's guilty..=.-

anyway...i lurve 2/4 '05!=D lets look back..our preparation for this teachers' day thing =)

friday...buy clothes with shawn =) LoL.supposed to meet at Lot 1...but Lot 1 was pathetic.so we met uo at JE...saw 2 commonwealth people...but....i dunno who they are =X as in i cant remember their names >.< took a taxi down to...dunno where.i only remember seeing taka n mariout hotel.lol.ya..i know i var easy can bei ren pian qu.cos i dun even know where i was..although shawn told mii alot of times.yupp..6 hrs of shopping.my record.haha.n we got green =) yay??heh heh..n i got scolding for reaching home late...=.-''' yay??lol..

saturday...which was yesterday =D practice again =) only had like 3 full rounds of practice with shawn.which was quite disastrous =/ but...yalar.we'll just do our best tomo =) itz audition tomo people!!yay?!heh heh..we can do it ya??i lurve 2/4 'o5 =D

"shake more!!pi gu she na lai yao de!" LoL.i miss gail.

2005-07-23T11:30:00.000-07:00

if there's one thing i cant stand,itz being wrongly accused.n im supposed to forgive u??cos ur my parents.n U are my brother >.<>.<

"these are not meant for liars." "they are not meant for false accusers." but this sentance remain stuck.cos???im just too nice.haha =)

2005-07-17T20:06:00.000-07:00

=D hahaha...im feeling happy =)) anyway..i went blogg visiting just now..why so many people feeling depressed?? =/ life is beautiful ya? im not crazy *_* so, people out there. live life happy kayy? stressed up for what? it dosent change the situation. live life as it goes. sometimes things happen to make ur life more interesting. dont u agree?? =)

ruth <3 everybody ="D

2005-07-09T19:48:00.000-07:00

=D thanks for tagging people.i shall reply all ur taggs!!

taggie replys..
gab yess gabby.the hopeless romantic lurves stars...=)
stanz heyo..ni hao ma??haha..u takkaire too =)
yan eww...i dun lurve u.haha..jk.yupp.all the best for nationals!
[acl]* hehe..blur la u.wad kinda friend are u..*sobx* i'll update u other day ya?on the phone =)
-g'eraldine- lol...u also dun get depressed la.haha..yea..<3>
gab ..always look on the bright side of life~ that was my phare okayy.lol..yea..life is still beautiful...lalala~ maybe i should be happy i dun have to do ur kinda math project??heh..u takkaire too =)
[sarah] =) thanks girl..yea..ur rite.but how to dun think?!i wanna go for a brainwash =.='''

haha..ignore my last post la.was a total display of stupidity on my part =X i was okayy few days ago..just dint bother to update.

sooo many things in my mind now...i cant sort anything out.....actually suprised i can thinkk of so many things at the same time??sheeh..maybe all these happenings are happening cos God knows i havent been making use of my brain n so has given mii chances to make use of it =.=''' yea.i sound so stupid cos less than 1% of my brain is left to use for the writing of this post.

sooo many things happening..all seems interconnected

a perfect disaster?

haha..sounds like saying an honest lie.

anyway...i slept at around 11 last nite!wo0t~ so unusual.was listening to the mp3 n then..zZzz.n i woke up at 11:20.wahaha...one more unusual thing.i finished all the homework TODAY!lalala~ im sooo happy...but math common test's on this coming tuesday >.<

ruth <3>

2005-07-03T01:39:00.000-07:00

sudden urge to blog.haha..cos....ive been thinking too much.n i cant take it anymore.im gonna get a mental breakdown.arghh..bro's hair fault.if his hair hadent grown long,den he wont have to cut it.means he'll be at home..means i wont get to listen to the mp3 n feel sad. see la.evening until now still thinking of the same things..i disagree with shawn.not dreaming about everything is nice =(

who know wad im "depressed"(thats the best adjetive to discribe mii now) about..all tell mii in just thinking too much..that there's no such "logic"."crazy arh...where got such thing??"thats wad ur say.thats totally opposite of wad i think.although thats wad i exactly wiish for..>.< maybe im just thinking too much.i've thought of these many times before n u've proved mii wrong.quite impressive ya..i just dun understand..

if i had a star everytime u brighten up my day.i'll be holding the galaxy in my hands

2005-06-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

fishball phobia

mee goreng phobia

LoL.

sooooo happy!=D saw my p6 friends..although not the whole class.siigh.felt like yi bai nian,yi qian nian mei jian..haha.let alone have a bbq together.not much changes ya??still 6b.the class i lurve =)) we rawk!lemme give u some reasons.

* ratio of girls to guys 9:21 .dunno why..but i just find this so cool.hehe..

* guys cried when we had to break.we only had 9 guys which means we had less chance of guys crying.but anyway..we had caseS x) err...dey're not sissys okayy?many of them are the opposite

* we're really united.no cliques or anything liddat.

* we treat the teachers like friends =)))

* most importanly..the people. =) dunno how to say.but 6b..u people know wad im talking about ritex? =)

the only changes were physical.dittaya n yong yue...looked the same.tian jun succeded in slimming down.i think he looks much thinner.lol.aaron n yun xiang broke voice n grew taller!arrggh..im short.the girls..no changes ritex?haha.accept for hair style?lol.

hmmm..mr woo seemed unusually quiet..no idea why.anyway..i proved him wrong!itz already my second yr in sec school.n...haha.i'll not be tha first =) joey helped at the bbq pit.cos she said she wanted free facial..budden i think with side effects..cos she chocked on the fumes.after that we played a catching game suggested by tj..not the usual kinda catching..not block catching.cos was quite late..den would be noisy if we ran up to the apartments..dittaya predicted i would scream at the sight of tj..although i already looked like a ghost.for ur info,the mascara i put on for the rehersal couldent come of..it smudged a lil..so...i only got it off this morning.but in the end they admitted it wasent that bad=D LoL -snaps back to topic- We have to hide around and not let the catcher catch you. When the 10 minutes is up, we have to make our way back to homebase without getting caught.i got cornered by tj n dittaya!arrghh...n they bullied mii!especially dittaya.he's e v i l.

second game...cos of the unfinished food..played concentration..haha..i had quite a few spoons of the mee goreng..>.< itz tj's fault.he go n scare mii..in the end i ate with him.he took 2 fishballs.haha.den of cos...i made blunders also..cos i wanted to call dittaya.his name so long lars..bleah.but the untimate fishball eater.KAH HENG!he ate up to ten fishballs.hehehe..
around 11pm..that security guard "chased us away".we wernt that loud rite...his ears were extra sensitive.

wonderful nite =) i lurve 6b.

ohh yar.happy belated birthday jasmine n jocelyn..itz gab's birthday tomo =)

2005-06-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

:)) im back.i shall blog for the sake of satisfying the public..i just cant be bothered to update.lazy.=) realised that have a lot of food at home =D cos i was away for 4 days?den no one to eat all the food x)

anyway..talking to chuling on the phone.we laugh more den we talk."var funny meh?!" haha..i talk var funny meh..i say one thing u need to laugh until liddat.but laughing is good for health...should laugh more =D lolls- was actually quite...mixed-up??not exactly sadd..not really happy.in a dreamy mood..haha..i wonder how one can experience this kinda emotions.or am i the only one???

what i wanted to do today:
1.math paper
2.piano
however...i accomplished none of the above.maybe i shall try task no. 2 later?thats a maybe =) had math in the morning..wasent that peaceful ya?lol...i was like *look at my answers.correct**looks away...shuts off* *laughs at people around mii* time passed.den met yan..decided to go causeway..window shopping is fatal!x.x if not for the non-talking,i would have died.ehheh..

so there u go people.wish fufilled.another boring entry by ruth.no inspiration though..so cant expect much..but at least itz strong enough to put u to sleep ritex??good nite people..although im not gonna sleep so early.

2005-06-14T23:58:00.000-07:00

he isnt aware of whats happening.well,itz either that or he dosent bother.in both cases,these,what seems to be bad,gives him courage. .i am inspired.

2005-06-13T21:54:00.000-07:00

=D lalala~ im bored..so i'll update.actually wanted to update long ago..budden like nothing happening.so...

friday nite..err,nono..saturday morning,1+,my second time sleeping while talking on the phone.hehe...XD blarh blarh..

den just last nite, suddenly felt var tired.miracle..lol.so...decided to sleep early so that i can get up early?hehe..budden,at 12:15..just as i was about to sleep.dunno which idiotic asshole called,n breathed so hard into the phone.n dint want to say anything.><>

hmm..yah..i've been waking up in the afternoon since the start of the hols..except days that have to go to school.feel that i've wasted away the hols.so today i made better use of it =) i...did some work?*okayy..i know some people finished it looong time ago* =X i practiced piano =D i read a book...for book review..hehe.n...i think nothing else except eating,watching tv #.=

neway..listening to mo ri zhi lian..to get the lyrics.budden....i only get a few phrases =.= nah mind..people..next time send mii chinese songs must send the lyrics also kayy?haha..

*yawns* im still bored...but i finally updated!yay??

2005-06-04T20:51:00.000-07:00

=D hehe...finally,internet's okayy =) yay.ahh..quite sianz lahs.today woke up so early...just to meet up with yan,des n sz to do ipw.*yawn* n we dint get the interviews =.= N I WAS MADE TO RUN ALL THE WAY TO GAIL'S HOUSE.to get the stuff we needed.just cos i was the only one who already zhong chicken pox.so...yeah..liddat.nothing interesting lahs...except for desiree's usual comments on the different parts of people's body?lol..=D(opps..does it sound veryy..err...=X)ate ALOT anyway..den when was in burger king...i heard something i dint wanna hear =:::( *sobx* im so sad..

desiree!!!if ur reading this..lemme remind u.im going to win the bet!but i dunno if im going to be happy about it.

sigh...ignorence is bliss.i regret knowing so much.

2005-05-08T14:22:00.000-07:00

before i say anything..i muz =D haha.i juz realised that my postings in april were very consistent.every eight days.hehheh.hmmm.everybody's stressed over exams.almost all the blogs talk about exam stress.so...i've decided to try not to mention anything in the next paragraph regarding exams :) although i know im gonna fail my midd-year overall.yupp.was told my someone that alot of people in class having pimple outbreak these few days.hahaha..exam stress?lol.

anyway..i was talking to shawn and yan on he phone on friday and saturday nite until saturday and sunday morning.so last nite had problem sleeping..hehe.talked about alot alot alot of stuff.especially yan's fav topic.BGR.lolx.den i was thinking alot alot alot also..*sigh but i shant write about it in here.itz too...erm.i have too much things to say.yah.then we also complained alot to shawn about the BIG person.lollx.i think he also felt stress after listening to our reasoning.haha.the BIG person..juz makes ipw a chore.why cant we be like the other groups?the members are like so automatic.ok...our members are automatic.except u.maybe itz the way we formed the group bahx.but still,cant u learn to accept??cant u be more accomodating??cant u learn to control ur temper n not blow up so easily?especially at things that can easily be solved?u are the leader.u are supposed to control the group but now,it looks as if we have to control u.again,in this small ipw group,i think the leader should only be someone to represent the group.everyone in the group is a member,everyone should listen to everyone.there should not be a someone who should have a final say in everything.being the leader is not a position,not something honourable.ok.even if u want it as a position,then can u at least take reaponsibility?dont lose things which are so important and then blaming ur members??i've wrote the report 3 times.THREE times.maybe more.i cant remember.i passed it to THE LEADER.the others saw it.n u can sae i was the one who lost the report??blarhx..itz gonna be worse after our talk wif mrs yip.n if she goes on wif her plan about changing the leader,im going to pity the new leader cos i know u're going to hate her like crazy.ohh well..if THE LEADER cant be bothered.why should i be??i

rather think about those stuff...

+[ni shi wang zi]++[bu dai biao wo shi ni de gong zu]+

[i was drunk when i wrote the first n last part of this]