Wednesday, December 20, 2006
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itz christmas. almost. ..
i shouldent be feeling like this, should i..?
we talked so much bout this time of the year..
wants..
wishes..
how it'd be like ...
then.. suddenly. just... suddenly. ... ....
n i thought u felt it.
so itz just me...?
God... help me. ..
dont let things stay this way. ...
itz... scaring me.
... even said... we'll... treasure it.
4:42 AM
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i cant believe i still remember my account's username n password. decades since i last blogged. ><
i guess.. u saved it =)
4:14 AM
Friday, September 29, 2006
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it was results time after the exams. mdm SOH handed mii my report slip in the hall n said "sorry ruth, see u next year." Overall: Failed. 46.8% stared straight at mii. i rushed to the girls toilet on the second floor, sat on the raised tiled area n cried my eyes out. then.. gail came in, told mii it was alright n all that crap. then i was outside... facing the library. behind mii was mdm SOH. "aiyo... that ruth arh..." n she was smiling/laughing. as usual. like it wasent a big deal. then... out of nowhere... ..Someone appeared. grabbed mii from behind n started.. telling mii stuff. ... ....
i think itz very sad. to get.. nightmares. ugh. n it seemed so real smmor =(
today dint make it better. guess what.
i did my summary on the same piece of paper as my compre. how forgetful can i get. i feel like some ultra blurblock, dont care at all, dont-listen-to instructions-at-all student. darn. are they not gon mark it?? =:::( of all exams, i had to make this mistake now. that guy teacher who collected my paper wanted to cut out my sumary for mii. but i dont know if they'll approve of it. ... .... ='/
TERRANCE SANTI: Clleear instructions given. Why u still do this..?
*pause*
me: -bite lips- i forgot.
TERRANCE SANTI: Dont do this next time okaee dear??
me: mm..
arghhhh!!!!!!!!! im SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO
SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSO
ANGRY. DISSAPOINTED with myself. how could i make such a mistake... ...?! ='(
please God. any other subject but english...
2:46 AM
Sunday, July 16, 2006
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u dont have to do this..
it wont make a difference.
mmm... i wish for a better brain. =(
n... tomo'll be the start of a new week.
ugh.
n having chem CT, bio o level SPA on the first day of school isnt gon help mii like the week.
-cries- im so not ready. wish mii luck.
... i shall do a proper update another time(:
6:43 AM
Friday, June 30, 2006
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i knew it. i just knew it would fade by now. .. :]
anger?
hatred?
... i dunno. these shouldent be in my head.
i tell myself itz a small matter.
budden i think again. is it??
i was thinking.. if we switched roles. what would u have done??
this?? or something worse??
we were never close.
but i always looked upon u as a friend.
never an enemy..
.
.
what bout you?? (:
i really wonder u know..
if u really felt like how u treat mii infront of mii...
then... why all these??
if you really hate the way i do things, let mii know will u??
n i mean tell mii straight to my face.
not like.. how u're doing it now.
if i make a mistake, let mii know.
i'll correct it.
i make mistakes. but hello, u do to.
we're human.
dont do it the way u're doing it now.
i dont see the use of it. do u?? or do u even think about what u do?
dont u even feel bad bout what u're doing??
being sucha... hypocrite?
but dont u worry (: i shant take revenge. im not as childish as u.
please. i dont wann hate u. God.. help mii...
7:26 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
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itz always like that.
itz always the wrong things that are reflected.
itz always the wrong things that are remembered..
time passes... the good things are forgotten.. or said to be done "long ago" n "not done anymore"...
hundreds of good things have to be done to cover up all the wrong things... n even so, for a short moment.
itz always like that. realise..?? ... ohh well.. =)
so God... help mii please them n myself.
this greedy girl just wants to have her cake n eat it.
siigh... tallking about impossibilities.
what's happening?? ..
i couldent concentrate..
i just kept thinking..
n regretting.
but i thought... ...only i would fall. i dint know... ...
however,
i know.. i know things dont always go the way we want them to.
this shall be something to overcome.
overcome.
so i quote "i'll make it right, cos i believe."
6:24 AM
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
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lalala.
whether or not to say itz up to u.
i shall just spare myself from misery. n not ask anything.
6:16 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
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siigh.. im sorry. i.. dont seem to mean what i say..
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7:52 AM